Wednesday, December 21, 2005
HO - HO - HUM
(Paige=HO Britt= HO Hope=HUM)
I figured I better officially check-in on the blog. This is Britt. I hope you are having a blessed Christmas Season. We are getting ready to drive down to Texas to spend time with the Porter family. After we get back we have about four weeks before we move down to Haiti.
When I was first asked to pray about our potential move, way back in June or July, I was not really thrilled about it. My only thoughts were how much I loved my life right now how it is and why should I leave a perfectly good life? I was the only one who did not want to go in the beginning. But that changed, as I realized my selfishness and current state of distance from God. I knew that God and I hadn't been close over the summer and just blamed it on being too busy. I started reading my Bible more and praying more.
Over the summer, I totally changed my opinion/attitude and was really excited to go to Haiti. I had started to tell some of my friends (who by the way, were supportive, but probably thinking we're nuts. That's ok though, because I kind of think we are nuts too!) and I was totally on the 'we're going to go serve in Haiti' bandwagon.
This feeling has fluctuated, (never let your feelings dictate your actions-feelings change by the minute) as the actual move gets closer. Not that I am doubting that we are supposed to go; I know this with all my heart. And I know that as it gets harder and harder and we want to turn back that that is just more reason that we are supposed to go.
If you hadn't figured it out by now, yes, I was one of the two people in this family to melt-down. I don't know; I guess I just never knew I could be so attached to a house or a room. I really really love our house but I know we will come back to it eventually. Also, it was just hard realizing that I have so many goodbye's ahead of me. I know that God will help me through it and I know that He will bless us in Haiti just the way He has here.
This is a quote my grandpa Porter sent that I really like and agree with:
"Better to love God and die unknown than to love the world and be a hero; better to be content with poverty than to die a slave to wealth; better to have taken some risks and lost than to have done nothing and succeeded at it."
~ Erwin W. Lutzer