In all seriousness, today is a day to give thanks for all that I'm being trusted with. (It doesn't.make. sense.at.all. - not on paper, not in reality to be entrusted with ^that^)! I don't know how to be fair, how to make enough time for everyone, how to meet individual needs, how to affirm them each, how to foster everyone's special talents and abilities, how to fill the holes of jealousy, hurts, and human failures .... I don't even know where to begin to do any of that.
Sometimes I go to bed at night knowing I didn't do the best job; that I failed in some way. In 22 years of trying to be good at this I've learned that the best gift I can give these children is to honestly admit that without God's help I can't do anything. My love will never ever be perfect, my patience will fail. I won't meet their every need. His love is perfect. His patience never fails. His perfect love and grace are sufficient if they can learn to trust it ... If I can learn to trust it.
Praying for a day of His sufficient peace, love, mercy and grace for moms with children, moms who have lost their children, and for those that have been praying and waiting and hoping to have a child.