Friday, January 15, 2010

Overwhelming Sadness - Overwhelming Gratitude

Last night I took five of my kids to the US Embassy to get them out of here so I can be of some help to Troy and the two ministries we represent in relief efforts.

They left me at midnight (or close to it - time is fluid and I feel a bit crazy). They left with two adoptive moms we love. Paige was a rock. Pray for her fifteen year old heart to be strong. Noah was very upset as was Lydia. Isaac asked, "Mom, is there any place to get a good haircut in America?" :)

They were taking anyone with a USA Passport to a cargo jet to board to an unknown location in the USA. I prayed for them and sent them off. This morning I was resting in the courtyard of the US Embassy waiting to be picked up when I heard Troy yelling at me from the gate telling me our kids are in New Jersey. THANK YOU to many of you that prayed they would get out. They are now going to be cared for by our oldest daughter and her husband and by my parents. I know God will heal their hearts and minds. Thank you God that my kids are on their way to respite and love and care. I pray that for all the frightened children in Haiti.

Many people were angry at not being able to bring bags. I got very angry listening to that as CNN inside the Embassy droned on and on about all the trapped all the dead all the hurting. I think a bag of possessions is hardly something to fight over. There are lives hanging in the balance and there is no end in sight.

The US Embassy employees who have also lost homes and friends are doing an AMAZING job on little to no sleep and dealing with a lot of hostile and rude people. I was blessed by watching them work. Pray for these employees.

Today we are beginning to prepare for mobile medical clinics and try to discern a safe and smart way to begin to do this in our area.

Haiti is disorganized and without infrastructure on the best day. For the aid to work and the teams of search and rescue workers to be able to do their job there is going to need to be a major effort of all people to lay down their own fear and personal need and allow the help to get to the worst off. Pray that people will think of others as best they can and that relief will begin to get to the places it is needed most.

Avek Jezi,
tara

85 comments:

Amy said...

Glad to hear it. Will continue to pray for y'all. Have you heard from the Clays? Take care of yourselves.
Amy(TN)

Jodie said...

I'm glad to hear you were able to get your kids to safety! Praying for you, your family, your ministry and your help for FHG!!!

Jen said...

Thank you for these updates. They are impacting and updating the world. We all care and are praying vigilantly.

Marian said...

Dear Troy and Tara,
I've been trying to read every single post from CNN and suddenly read the article about your blog. I really value what you guys have been and are doing for the people in Haiti and hope the world looks at you and follow your path. You guys are an example to follow and I will pray for you so that you guys can be safe. I am Christian too and sometimes one cannot understand when this tragedies happen, and especially when they happen to people that have already been suffering a lot. However, I believe that our God is there with you and that he has not abandon you...no matter what has happened, it does not mean he is not there.
I will keep praying and hoping things only get better. Thank you so much for being the persons you are and for giving hope to the people from Haiti... Blessings! Marian, from Switzerland.

Cheryl, Sarah and Rusty Merritt said...

yes, you ARE walking WITH HIM! Sigh of relief most your children are out. We know you are weary- hope you can feel your arms being held up by many who love & care.

ManyBlessings said...

I cried as I read this. I can't imagine the heartbreak of being separated, yet knowing it's best. Tara, don't doubt for a second that your blood runs just as strong as the Haitians. You too Troy. And you Paige. Praying for you today as you begin healing and working. Love you guys.

Lisa Zuhlke said...

Thanks for updating us, praise God that you could get your kids' out and focus on helping these poor people

Megan said...

Ditto to what Jen said. God bless Paige and her incredibly strength and Isaac for his humor. May God watch over your children and comfort them; praying for you and all of the people of Haiti, the rescue teams and embassy personnel. Please let us know if there is *anything* that we can do from our end here in the US to assist your family. We will continue to spread the word that financial assistance is the best way for people to contribute.

Heather said...

Continually praying. Because of Daniel we have an inroad. People are asking about how they can help - we direct them to you and world wide village. I hope the support flows in. I think the fact that you have water and the purifier is a miracle of loaves and fishes proportions. God has set you in this position for such a time as this. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for being willing to still serve and love those around you while you are hurting so much yourself. TRULY UNBELIEVABLE!

Audrey Ann said...

I am glad your children are safe. Thank you for the updates. I am PRAYING. I love you all.

Braydon said...

I am so thankful you were able to get your kids to a safe place, that is wonderful personal news. We're continuing to pray for you to have strength and make progress.

Mandy said...

I've been praying for your family and all of Haiti!

The Zimmerman's said...

I don't know you but somehow came across your Blog. Please know that all of us that are unable to physically help are praying and sending money. We are at a loss and feel so helpless, just wanting to do SOMETHING. We are praying for God to have mercy on all those trapped, physically in pain, alone and afraid, hungry, thirsty, experiencing loss, and hopeless. Praying that people would find God and His comfort in their time of suffering. Praying for you to have determination and deep, deep strength in the days ahead.
Sara - Madison, WI

Heather said...

Tara, sending you and Troy love and strength. Out of darkness there comes light. We are with you.
Heather

Jeff said...

wow. my heart goes out to you sending your kids off today. Mixed feelings i am sure. And just a minute ago, it was only a marathon. I believe with all my heart when i say God bless you, he will. And give you strength and peace to carry on.

Mike said...

I know you're in the thick of it right now, but eventually you'll be able to look back on this and truly see the impact that you've made in so many lives...

Thanks for the updates. We're praying for you and your adopted country.

Tania @ Larger Family Life said...

So glad your children are safe. Praying for you all at this time.

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ajnrileysmommy said...

praying that the God of HOPE will fill you and strengthen you today. that His hope will be an anchor for your soul.

Alina said...

T&T, you don't know me, but I'm a faithful reader & NJ foster mom. I'm about 15 minutes from the airport. Do your kids and the folks they are traveling with need anything? How long are they waiting for a flight to join Britt?

God bless you all.

kayder1996 said...

Praying for your mommy heart...

kayder1996 said...

Also, troy tweeted about the One Stop Market. I am pretty sure I read somewhere it was not okay. But I can't remember where I read it. It would have been a first hand account but I don't know from whom.

Aimee said...

what a relief for you to know that your children are safe. I pray that you can feel peace, focus and discernment and be relieved from fear and panic. our prayers are with you!

clarissa said...

I am very glad your children are safe. Thank you for the updates, I read your blog everyday. I'm from Italy, we know the fear and the sorrow of earthquarke.
We feel very close to you. I pray for you, for all haiti people.
Clary

A Stone Gatherer said...

Praying for you all! So glad that 5 of your children got out! Wish that Phoebe and Annie could too, along with all the sweet children of Haiti that are trapped!!! I wish I could take them here!!

We will do what we can, which right now is prayer and send money, so that is what we will be doing!

God bless you as you are separated from some of your children and as you continue to work for the people of Haiti!

The Daniel Fund said...

Deer Troy and Tara,

This broke my heart and David and I can certain relate to sending your kids back home to the states and heading back to uncertainty in Haiti knowing its what has to be done. After David got shot,and we had to tell the kids that we would be sending them home for awhile one was happy and the other two were very mad at us and reminded us that families stick together, it broke our hearts.
Although our situation was not as dire as this crisis. We mean it when we say you are in opur constant thoughts and prayers, please let us know what we can do from here.

Your family is a picture of what it really means to lay it all down and cling to Jesus. Love from Kansas!

David and Summer

Sara Lynn said...

Praying for your family and all of Haiti. Glad your children made it back to the US safely.

pressedforward said...

Every post brings tears and prayers. Thank you for what you are doing in Haiti. So glad that your oldest and your parents are able to be there for you and your children.

Blessings on your family and the people you are serving,

Diane
National Network of Parents of Missionaries

Laura Lu said...

tears...

Eric said...

We're praying from Costa Rica, be strong Troy n Sara, Jah bless ya guys

JoAnn Venhuizen said...

Troy and Tara. I dont know you but I got your blog from a friend at work that knows you! i was curious to check it out and am glad i did. thank you so much for being the hands and feet of Jesus in haiti. you all are blessings. without knowing you at all...i can tell that God is working in you, through you and will meet you just where you need to be met. i am thankful for you. many blessings and prayers sent your way. stay safe! thanks for doing HIS work.

JoAnn Venhuizen
Brooklyn Park MN

Brazenlilly said...

Tara, I am a friend of Kristen's and have been watching and reading every word this week, praying fiercely. When there was nothing new, I spent an hour reading your whole pre-earthquake blog, and now feel like I know you, Troy and the kids. We are continuing to cover you in prayers, both you and the children and the people of Haiti. Also have lots of others praying for you by name. Be safe!

gaffergirls.com said...

the world is a little better place because of you...

all out love
mona & the girls

Ruth said...

Praising God that you have a good place your kids are able to go (thought not able to imagine all that went into that decision) - Praying that God will give you His rest, His peace, His grace and His strength for the task that is very long term.

Ashley Gatta said...

Found your blog via a link from The Village. Praying for your family, the people of Haiti, and the Embassy employees. Thanks for all you do!

Alexandra said...

Dear Tara and Troy
we are sending you strength, patience and love. While we cannot do anything else but send money right now, Haiti is on our minds constantly, every second of the day and with that you and your family also!

Alexandra, Germany

sea salt MOSAIC said...

I am encouraged to hear that your children are back stateside and will be with Chris and Britt. We surely know the aches of separation, all too well. Our boys will surely be praying tonight for your children as you are not together.

I have emailed you, but also posted a plea for help on my blog - we haven't any news yet of our Sousi and Sève and are looking for help locating them. I know diesel is running out and there are emergencies close to home, but if you encounter anyone that can help we would be indebted to your kindness.

www.seasaltmosaic.blogspot.com

Raise Them Up said...

Your family, your ministry, and your hearts are in our prayers.

I've shared a link to your site with my readers and trust that their prayers will join with the many, many others that are lifting you up.

It's a helpless feeling to be so far away. Thank you for sharing specifics we can pray for and for giving our prayers direction.

Hugs from Indiana

Carmen said...

praying

chrstnwrecker said...

Troy and Tara,
I'm a pastor of a baptist church in Illinois. I was looking at CNN's info this am and found your blog. I wanted to write just a short note to tell you that I am sure proud of you. To hear the story of another family of Christians living the radical life of discipleship among the "least of these" is a strong beacon of Christ's hope and call to real discipleship even here among the comfortable, mediocre Christianity of much of middle America. Thank you for your witness. I pray God watches over you and gives you opportunities to be loving channels of God's mercy to those in need. "We have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed, perplexed, but not in despair, persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed...our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Cor. 4

May you know peace today even in chaos.

Your brother in Christ,
Christian

Dionna said...

Was directed to your blog from the link on another. I am so glad your family is all right. I can only imagine the chaos, stress, and emotions you are going through right now. I have a sponsored child in Les Cayes. Hoping she is all right.
Praying...

terri said...

no words. lots of love and prayers...

Anne said...

I just discovered your blog earlier this week in a search for real news. I am far away in Oregon, but I wanted you to know how much your family has touched me by your sacrifice and service to Haiti. Your family and all your friends are Amazing and changing the lives of so many. My thoughts and prayers and support are focused on your family, friends and Haiti. You will get through this a be stronger for it.

Mamita J said...

Troy and Tara,

I've been praying for you and your kids and all the people of Haiti. We'll be praying long term for the recovery and rebuilding.

I'm sorry you had to say good-bye to your kids under such painful and scary circumstances. I'm glad they will be safe and cared for in the US.

Our hearts are with you,
Julie

Becky said...

H ~ HELP....be their ever-present help in time of trouble, Lord Jesus.

A ~ ANSWER....may they receive answers to whatever situation they need; but most of all, may they look to the TRUE ANSWER....and may they call out to You, and You answer them as only You can.

I ~ INFUSE....infuse them with Your strength, STRONG TOWER; emotionally, physically, and spiritually so supernaturally that Your glory be evident everywhere.

T ~ TREASURE....may they find their treasure in You; but in the meantime, may they receive all the earthly treasure they need: food, shelter, medical help, clothing, communication, whatever they need, Lord ~ send Your bounty to Haiti.

I ~ INDESTRUCTABLE...may the Word of God, which is indestructable permeate the island and the hearts of those who are broken, and bind up their wounds. May everyone involved have the unshakable HOPE that is in Christ Jesus, our Lord.

I pray it all in Your matchless, almighty, victorious name, Jesus, the Christ. AMEN and AMEN

Jaimie said...

I just started following your blog and linked to it on Facebook and my blog. Trying to get the word out to pray for all of you. You are our family in Christ and we are all lifting you guys up in prayer.

Haitian-American Family of Three said...

Hey guys, we are getting donations sent out and hopping they are reaching as many people as possible-when the re-building starts contact us because Chris is a solar tech journeyman electrician and we are working on getting some panels donated-let us know if that is something you could use in the future.

Ashley Julian said...

I'm praying for your family and for Haiti and trusting that God's love is deeper than the deepest, darkest pit.

Kathrin said...

Good to hear your kids are save. We are thinking of you and the people of haiti.

Amy Bell said...

praying for your family....praying for the people of haiti...i am going to post the info on my FB for others to donate to heartline for the clinic (via your tweets)...praying for you all....praying that the Lord will keep you strong and give you what you need hour by hour.

Our Family said...

Livesays...praying for you today. god will multiply your efforts and just when you think you cant go on, you will get a burst of energy! God is good ALL THE TIME!

Laurel said...

Praying for your children, as they are separated from you.

Praying for your mama heart, as you know that they need to be in the US, and that you need to be in Haiti. But, I know it still hurts immeasurably.

Praying for you and Troy, that the LORD would use you in a MIGHTY way.

Stay strong. He will guide you.

mama of many

Amber said...

I know you are very busy, but my sister-in-law was in Canape Vert, Port-au-Prince when the earthquake hit. Her name is Daniella Augustin and she's 19; she and my brother have been married barely a month. Please, if you could just ask around even just where you are, it would be appreciated. Any info please contact me at amberjsisson@gmail.com
Thank you for reading this.

Blessed Be,
Amber Sisson

Diane said...

I heard a sound byte on the radio - a cheer that went up when the plane carrying the Americans (your children) arrived in New Jersey. YEAH!
Our family has all been located in Carrefour and Acquin and is safe. We are so thankful. Acquin is untouched and still has power, etc.

Thank you for taking time to respond to my email earlier this week.

Diane in Wisconsin

@eloh said...

We are praying for you all.

Ericka said...

Gosh I love that Isaac!!!! We need his mind in all this insanity!

Kelly said...

Just found your blog, am praying for your family and for the precious people of Haiti too!

yvonne said...

Hey T & T,
Just letting you know that my friend works for an online quilting fabric store and she is putting on a silent auction. She will be auctioning off quilts and all donations will go to either WWV, Real hope for Haiti, or Haiti-relief.com. I'm still praying for you guys! Please don't forget to take care of yourselves! You guys are awesome!!

Yvonne

Kelly Summers said...

thanks for the update, prayers are with you and your ministry.

Linda Stubbs said...

Just a note to let you know that I was encouraged by a blogger friend to come and read your blog. I did. Loved your family the minute I started reading. I did a post about you and put you on a women's forum that I belong to. We are standing together here in America passing info on by word of mouth. We are praying and as I read your post today it is wonderful that you are feeling the Lord's presence. Our family is taking great interest in your family and will keep you up in our face all day long with your blog. I have 2 daughters 18 and 15 that are following also.
Our middle son and his family have a child with Compassion International and have not heard if he is okay.
Blessings sweet family that is on the straight path with the Lord. There is not a better place to be. He is definitely using your hands and feet.
Linda and family.

Eternal Lizdom said...

I do not know you and found your blog by searching for bloggers in Haiti. I am adding a link to your blog in a special section on my own blog. I want you to know that I am praying for you and for all the people in Haiti.

Dear God,

While I cannot always understand the things that happen in our world, I pray that you will be with all the people in Haiti and those outside of the country who are waiting to hear from loved ones. I pray that all those who are hurting, grieving, in pain, suffering will feel your embrace and know that you are there beside them and that you weep with them. I pray that those who lost loved ones will feel comforted in knowing that you were there when their loved one lost their life and that you have taken them home and that they have no more pain or fear. I pray for strength for the rescue workers, the missionaries, the communities, all who are working countless, endless hours to bring stability back to this devastated place. I don't have much to offer but I do have the strength of my prayers and my faith in your love and comfort.

Amen

Lola said...

Thank you for updating. We are in prayer for Haiti, your family and your efforts there.

e-Mom said...

Just touching base, Tara. Your big move to Haiti--for such a time as this. Your amazing kids will be fine, and your strength and tenderness are an example to the world. Thank you. Your blog has touched thousands.

(((Love 'n prayers)))

e-Mom :~D
U.S. Pacific Northwest

Sadie said...

One of Troy's Twitter posts was quoted in this weeks Time Magazine. Still sending up many many prayers for you guys.

Lyonslove said...

Dear Tara-I am Mark Howerton's sister and I read your blog often, more so this week. I just want you to know that I love you and that you are doing The Lord's work. I am so glad that Kristen could be with your children loving them on this day. I am praying for your children and for the work that is ahead of you. I have been in tears all day and just so prayerful. I rejoice that your kids are safe and that Kristen will be home tonight. God is faithful. I know that this is FAR from over and I will continue to pray. Thank you for giving us specific things to pray for.
You and Troy are in my heart.-Sarah

Sandra's Latest... said...

Dear Troy and Tara
I was directed to your blog yesterday. It is amazing to read what you are going through. Happy to hear your children are safe, although I am sure it is hard to let them go. Blessings and strength to you as you continue to serve in haiti. Praying for God's provision in many ways.
I'm looking into possibilities of serving (I'm a primary health care doctor) at some point...but it seems for now it is hard enough for the disaster relief/surgical teams etc to get going.
Praying for great coordination and successful relief efforts.
In Him,
Sandra

smiles4u said...

Continued pray is going out for each of you and your children. I am thankful you were able to get the 5 of them to your daughters. I continue to pray that your strength and heart will be renewed continuously. Bless all of you, Lori

Liz said...

You and your family are in my prayers. You are doing amazing work.

The Gathering Place said...

I just stumbled across your blog and want to say that we are praying for everyone there. I put a link of your blog on mine so other people can share your story.
Thanks,
JoAnn

othermama cee cee said...

Continuing in our prayers for you. I have sent your links to many WBL people and others around the US. We are all praying for God to give you strength, calm, patience, perseverance and hope.
Cindy C.

Judy said...

I'm beseeching the throne of God on your behalf! Thank you for all that you're doing!

Art Dorado said...

Dear Try and Lara,
Just an astonishing amount of good work you do there! Very much respect for you both and the strength you show.
May be you know anything about the Phaeton or Faeton family? Ramona Phaeton lives at Curacao, Netherlands Antilles and is deeply worried about her sister PELICIA PHAETON (36) and her son JEAN CHRIS VALDO PHAETON (15) .
She visited them just a month ago, but now she can't contact them. They live in the house Jean Gerard Michel at DELMAS 17 No.3 .
When I see the photo's of Delmas I can't help but fear the worst. Eventhough we pray; for them, for you and for every Haitian there.

Please let me know if you know something about them or their house, where they live on the third floor.
I know you have lots and lots of work to do, but maybe you see them, maybe you see the house, maybe someone knows anything about them?
We keep on hoping!

Kirk said...

Wow! If God is in the business of answering prayers (and I heard he is) you will have the best help you can get. You all are in my thoughts day in, and in my prayers day out!

Teach Me to Be Still said...

Brand new to your blog. Can't even remember how I found you now. We are a Christian family in CA praying for you!! I have been reading your blog to my older children (ages 9 & 11)and we are all lifting you and people of Haiti in prayer. My boys are collecting cans/bottles to turn in for recycling cash to send to you in Haiti (sent some already via your blog link)--wish it was a million dollars but am praying the Lord will stretch it. Use it however you feel is best. Our verse and encouragement to you my dear brother and sister in Christ:

The Lord says, "I will make my people strong with power from Me!...Wherever they go, they will be under my personal care." Zech. 10:12 TLB

Blessings-
Laurie

Luciene said...

Haiti's Consul in Brazil, George Samuel Antoine, said that the tragedy that happened in your country "was good because it made them known", whatever that means. He added that everywhere where there are Africans, bad things happen. It infuriated me. How can people be so blatantly disrespectful to others' suffering? And it seems he has relatives there.

I wish people in Haiti could rely on the authorities for help.

balburg said...

I read this on cnn thought it might help troy. Jaime and Ali McMutrie, 30 and 21 respectively, run one of the houses at the Brebis de Saint-Michel de L'Attalaye (BRESMA) orphanage in Port-au-Prince.

In frantic messages they sent from a borrowed BlackBerry nearly 24 hours after the earthquake, the sisters shared the good news that all of the children in their care were alive. But they pleaded for urgent assistance. They and the children were living in the yard without food or water. They worried that babies would die from contaminated water.

"I want to make sûre évryoné ùnderstands we cant stay inhaiti and thé kids will not live if théy stay," Jamie typed in a rush.

Vicky said...

Read your post this AM before work. Your kids have been heavy on my heart all day and I have been praying praying praying-- for safe travels, for comfort, for strength, for healing, and for the Haitian people.

Praying also for you guys, Troy and Tara. Thank you for all you are doing and for the sacrifices you are making.

Vicky

PS: Isaac= hilarious :D

K said...

Glad to see on Twitter that aid has reached those at BRESMA...I have been worrying after seeing Jamie's husband on the local news. When I saw your post about heading that direction I was holding my breath that you would make it...glad someone was able to get through to them all.

Our thoughts are with you all during this hard time.

Nancy Bea Miller said...

Wow, thanks for sharing this!

Beth said...

Stumbled upon your blog via Christine Moers.

Thanking God for your service to His kingdom.

Praying for you.

Telling others.

Sending money.

May God strengthen you.

Consume me... said...

I am a new reader...praying for your strength and endurance, and also your children as you are separated. Glad you are there to offer Hope to the hopeless...

Nicky said...

Praise God for your families safety. May you be able to pour out His love so many will be saved. I will be keeping you in my prayers.

Holly said...

We are an NJ family with three children and if we can be of ANY assistance to your family here or provide fun for the children we would be hohored to help. We have three children 11,8 and 3 (one internationally adopted) Feel free to contact me at ninalindy(at)gmail.com and we would be honored to provide asssitance in any way do not hesitate to contact us for a more private way of communication.

In Prayer, The Lione Family

WalksInTheWoods said...

You can add us a friends from New Jersey who are praying for your ministry and endurance in this crisis time. Christ's love shines brightest in the darkest times and we pray for your opportunities, impact. and protection.
We also are praying for your own hearts, the apples of your eyes are now here in the US. We will pray protection and peace for their hearts as they worry over Mom and Dad.

Matt said...

Troy and Tara,
My husband, Matt, and I are youth pastors at Nassau Presbyterian Church in Princeton, NJ. I read that your kids are being cared for by Grandparents in NJ. If they are close to us and we can be of any help, please let us know. Haiti is close to our hearts! I spent a summer there many years ago, and support ministries there as I can. We have found your blog and are keeping you in prayer!
Elizabeth Schultz