Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Time Management - and other random mind dumping

Time Management
I have taken the change in our plans in stride. We can get it done and be ready at 4am on Friday but it won't be pretty. I made phone calls while eating, thinking, writing lists, soothing children, and driving. Thank the Lord no one was injured by my distracted driving. (Thank you Lord.)

Troy and I are sure that God is all over this new date. We are thankful for that specific answer to our prayers. I cannot wait to see my prince charming ... I know, Gag gag (gag some more) ... but he really is my prince. Sorry to make you roll your eyes. I'll stop now.

Other random mind dumping ...

Emotions are running high and today was a really hard day for me, in particular. The whole story is not shareable (is that a word?) but my day started out by being falsely accused, which led to anger, hurt and tears.

After that confrontation I was left wondering what it would be like to not believe that God is in conrol of all things.(Even confrontations) I believe He is, with every part of my being ... even when bad things happen, I believe it. When babies die and people get sick, I believe it. God has all the pieces. I don't. I don't want all the pieces, who needs that sort of pressure? Not me.

Like I said last night, (in my post) I have very few pieces of the puzzle. I don't understand why today was so difficult and I probably never will but it really doesn't matter because someone bigger, and stronger, and more powerful, saw me... and was with me today. (And he sent good friends and family to love me too!)

God will be with me tomorrow and He can give me enough of His grace and mercy to get through whatever attack comes my way in the future. It is mind-numbing to me and I don't think I will fully comprehend His sovereignty until I am standing in Heaven ... but for now I am okay with just waiting on the answers and leaning on Him.

"The Christian life is not a constant high. I have my moments of deep discouragement. I have to go to God in prayer with tears in my eyes, and say, 'O God, forgive me,' or 'Help me.' " ~Billy Graham